Tuesday, December 26, 2017

To-Do Over a Christmas Break

Christmas is my favorite season. I don't know, its in the Christmas spirit that makes my heart feels so glad. Maybe because this is the time of the year where all your family members gather together and celebrate the season. Relatives and old friends are reunited in Christmas parties and other get-together gathering. Aside from that, this is the time where I can have a long break from all the stresses in work. What I love about this break is that I can always find time for myself- to do the things that I failed to do during regular days.  I can have my "me time" and I can do whatever I want to do. So here it is, I've already planned out my "To-Do Over a Christmas Break Checklist".

So, to start things of, I got  list of activities. I put check mark ( ) to the accomplished tasks and x for the things I haven't done yet.

✓  1. Do some general cleaning- Do the sweeping, clean my room, wash clothes, clean my bedding, bags and etc. I got this "OCness" in me that I wish to clean everything almost everyday, but failed to do it due to school work. So, finally I got to make it today. I'm proud I got to wash mine and my sister's clothes. You can rarely see me washing because I hate washing clothes. 

X  2. Paint-  I got some blank canvas and set of oil paint, so I'll start painting at least 2-3 paintings for this season. I really love painting. It is my first love but it saddens me, knowing that I can only do it once in a while. 
  3. Cook my Specialty Dish- Nobody knows I love cooking, but I feel exhausted in cleaning after cooking so I rarely cook. This time I want to practice cooking spaghetti and tadahh... I made some for Christmas eve.  

X  4. Facial Treatment- I really love facial massage. It is soothing and relaxing. I love the result, so I gotta visit the clinic this Christmas break.

5. Read a Book- I downloaded a book and I'm planning to read it this Christmas break. It's a Christian book to be exact.

6. Go some place (somewhere) alone-  I wanna be independent this coming 2018. All my life my parents,siblings, friends dictates me on things I'm going to do. This time, it's my symbolic way of expressing... "this time, Im going to do it on my own", not because somebody said so. I want to be an independent woman.

7. Rest from Social Media- I was so bombarded with so much happenings in social media that I don't understand anymore the things that is going on in my life. This time, I'll gonna spend time with my self resting, meditating. I also wanna spend time with God and do some catching up. heheh

8. Go out with a Friend-  I am a busy person that even going out with a a friend is such a hard thing to do. I miss my friends a lot. I want to catch up with them and spend some quality time with them. I hope I can do this before the break ends.

X 9. Dinner in a Restaurant w/ Family- I know what you're thinking. Yeah right, I'm a boring and busy person. But I'm trying to change :| for the better.We usually had dinner (together) at home but not in a restaurant- yeah, due to busy scheds (I guess).

10. Write some blogs-  my blog is my safe haven, this is where I can express myself when others are not listening. Aside from prayer and painting, this is where I can be myself. I maybe fake and pretentious in front of many people, but my blog is where I want to be. I can be sad, lonely, gloomy and happy. All sorts of emotion I can express and good thing, nobody cares.

So, this is it. I got my list and it's all set.  I got to accomplish it before my break ends. Got to go! Keep going everyone. Happy holidays. 
Merry Christmas everyone and God bless you.

Saturday, December 16, 2017

To The One That Got Away

I miss someone who isn't mine to miss. I dream about someone who isn't mine to dream about. I love someone who isn't mine to love. He's too far from me now. I was never been a part of his life, nor in his plans and dreams. I was never in his mind or in his heart. It breaks my heart because I can't even express my love for him. I can't even say he is the one that I LOVE. I want to take good care of him, love him and live the rest of my life with him. He is always been in the heart of my prayers, praying to  God to make his dream come true. I want him to be happy in his life and be the man he wants to be. I want him to live the dream- even if I'm not part of it. After all, true love is not selfish. It is about being happy for someone's happiness.

"Unrequited love does not die; it's only beaten down to the secret place where it  hides, curled and wounded." -Elle Newmark

So I wrote a letter for you as part of my healing and this will be the last...

To the one that got away,

I never thought that I will fall for you. We were ones friends, then best friends... but I was caught off guard. Yeah, I fell. You cared so much to me, the caress that I got from you is what I always value, but I never thought it was never been true. Now, I was left wounded and shattered. You didn't do anything wrong... it's just me who loves you all along. How can I get back from this sudden fall? I was left puzzled and hopeless. Puzzled, thinking what if you love me too. Hopeless, because I know you never do. You were once the cause of my happiness, but it turned out the cause of emptiness, loneliness and brokenness. How can I stand from this fall?  Why am I afraid to loose you... when you're not even mine? Your departure just caused me deep sorrow. Since the day you left, I've been missing you so badly, almost everyday.

Many years had passed, the scars and wounds never leave. It was just being suppressed without being noticed. I loose faith in love and turned out to be fearful in love. I started to loose my hope. It's not your fault, it's me who fall after all. But this notion should come to an end. I shouldn't wallow on the sadness and brokenness. God has many plans in my life. God installed good things to me, waiting to be unfold.
I swear this will be my last letter for you. I'm writing this to you to be healed. This healing of wounds is not easy, it's tough, but it is the right thing to do. All I want is these wounds to be gone.

So, I'm letting you go. 
I forgave you.
I understand.
I know, we were not meant to be. 
God wants to heal me, but first I should let you go. I will let you go.
Letting you go doesn't mean I'll stop praying for you. I'll still be praying  for your happiness and success. Letting you go doesn't mean I'll forget you, it means I'm already giving up the idea that we will end up together.

So I'll go now. I believe there is someone out there who is waiting for me in the future and the same with you too. I know my God prepared something beautiful for us separately. I'll start to live  life again without you. Now it's time for you to go and leave- to leave my mind and heart. So, farewell to you my love. I should start walking without you. Let's walk our separate ways without looking back. But I never wish that we'll be strangers again, after all... I never regret loving you.

Goodbye my love. And when we meet again, I'll hug you tight and say thank you, because you taught me how to love unselfishly and love unconditionally. You taught me how to forgive and to let go.
And when we meet again, when that day comes, probably all my questions about "Why?" are answered. 

Wishing you the best. Thank you my friend :)
Good Bye.


Wednesday, December 13, 2017

The Pessimist Optimist

Everything that we go through in life is just a part of the process, it's part of God's plan. Sometimes we think that life is so unfair, life is so cruel and some things don't happen just the way we want it. Hold on... we'll go through it. Everything will be unfolded in the right time, just the way God wants it and it will be beautiful. Wait, God's in the process of molding us, making us into a better person.

I would say I'm a pessimist in some way. I always think that I can't do it and I will never make it. I have certain things and plans that I want to do in my life, but at the back of my mind... it will fail- I'll never make it. I hate myself for being this way. God has many good things and promises, but believing and holding on to it is such a hard thing to do. I always search for proof and evidences before I believe. I still need someone to push me forward for me to do it. I have no enough agility to stand up and do it. But God who is so gracious, keeps on reminding me that He is there for me. He wants me to do things for His glory. He wants me to do it with Him. As He promised, all things works together for good for those who love God, to them who are called according to His purpose.

God wants me to be an optimist. Everyday is a battle, is either we hold on or give up and let go. It is about us to stay positive even things around you is failing. The inner pessimist me comes out when storm comes, but God who is forever gracious remind me that we are made to be an optimist. We can do it, as long as God is on our side.

Have a blessed day. Keep going and God bless.

Saturday, July 15, 2017

In Due Time

The eyes of all look to You,  and You give them their food in due time.
                                                                                   -Psalm 145:15
I m currently reading on this book God's Whispers to a Woman's Heart. And I find it very helpful to inspire my inner soul. I'm recommending this book to you . I love it and it helps me to stay in tune with God. Deep inside our soul, we want to hear God's whisper. This is what our hear needs.

Here's a glimpse of that book. Quoted from that book.

"My child, I know that you look around you and you see so many who seem to have so much more than you. But look closely, do they have Me? Let me change you heart and perspective so that you will gladly live with a little and honor Me rather that choose to have plenty and disregard Me. Trust that I will life you up is due time. Walk closely next to Me. My child, during these days that seem unfair, so that you will see me in your circumstances and grow in unwavering trust. As you do it, it pleases Me to pour out out blessings to you... in due time."

I find it very helpful to walk in my day to day life. I recommend this book "God's Whispers to a Woman's Heart" by Cindi McMenamin. Find time to read books that will uplift your faith and nourishes your soul. Keep going everyone.

Thursday, June 01, 2017

A Letter for Papa: Advance Happy Father's Day 2017

    I've seen how God works through you. You stood up straight and strong through out our journey. God has given you extra strength to endure all the problems we had. Though, I cannot fathom how God works in our lives (during the time I was tested), but I believe that God used you mightily to serve as the strength in our family. You didn't give up and you didn't loose hope. At times that I don't understand the things that is going on inside me, bu you stood still, prayed and intercede . You make things clear to me when things seems so confusing. I thank the Lord because He used you as a father to this family.

   Now, we are victorious in the Lord. God has given us victory and I am much more victorious because I am blessed with two Fathers- my Father in heaven and my father here on earth.

   Thank you God for such a gift.
                                                                                                                                     Ling <3

You might ask an wonder about the things I've written... this is the letter I wrote for my dad after some problems and obstacles happened in our family lately. And I am blessed to have a dad like him.

Advance HAPPY FATHERS DAY papa and all the fathers in the world.

Wednesday, April 26, 2017

A Love for Music for a Stress-Free Day

This past few days was the greatest challenge of my life. I was hospitalized for almost two and a half weeks. I was diagnosed with amoeba and my doctor said I was stressed in my work. The doctor recommend to have enough rest and sleep. I thanks God for my fast recovery. I am out in the hospital and taking my medications and taking enough rest. It also lessen my stress and sickness whenever I listen to inspirational and praise music.
My younger sister usually play guitar at home, and it really helps me relax. It soothes my feeling. I got the feeling of tranquility. Good thing there is a site like https://www.guitarcenter.com where you can find great quality guitars. You make your purchase online and get rid of stresses. From then on, I'm going to practice a healthy lifestyle.

Keep going everyone. Have a stress-free day.

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Movie Review: Trolls

It's been  a long time since I made my last movie review here in my blog. So what makes me write again in my blog about movies? Well certainly because I fell in love to this movie. Especially the plot of the story and the soundtrack. Any kids born in the 90's well surely appreciate this movie. The soundtrack of the movie is very nostalgic. If you are a Justine Timberlake fan, the more you will fall in love with his voice and if you're not, surely you will be after you watch the movie.

Forget about the soundtrack, let's go on  purely a review on the plot. I'm a fan of animated movies, I'm not being biased, but this one is one of my top of the list. I love the message of the story. "No Trolls left behind", and "Happiness is inside of all of us, sometimes we just need someone to help you find it". It speaks about finding real happiness and camaraderie. It talks about friendship and love. It also shows how happiness can soften people's heart or the opposite, how sadness and aloofness could  hardened ones heart. We can learn a lot of life lesson in the movie. The story of the prince and chamber maid also touches me. If you love someone, don't pretend to someone else just to make that person love you. Don't be afraid of who you really are. The person who loves you, will accept who you are after knowing all your lapses and flaws. Don't be afraid, just let them show... your true colors. Your true colors are beautiful like a rainbow. Heheh

This is the movie for the whole family, young and old. We can surely relate to the movie, to the music and to characters they portray. This is a movie fun and exciting, plus the comedy in it. You'll surely enjoy it. I'll give this movie a two-thumbs up! Keep going everyone. God bless.

Wednesday, February 22, 2017

Perks of Being a Teacher

I'll be celebrating my 3rd year anniversary as a public school teacher. Year 2014 when I signed my contract and received my item from national the position of  Teacher 1. The feeling was very overwhelming and rewarding- knowing that it paid off all your sacrifices while applying for that job position. And finally all my dreams starts to unfold right in front of me.

The work of a school teacher is stressful and draining sometimes. But, I cannot deny the fact that I am enjoying and loving this job. Along the way, you'll meet different kinds of students- the crazy one, sincere, cheerful, loud and outgoing and stubborn. All of these are sum up in one classroom- your second home. The adventure and misadventure of a teacher is undeniably exciting. One thing, I hate about my classroom is when the whole class is very noisy and student could no longer hear your voice and discussion. Good thing, in today's technology, you could avail and enjoy the benefits of using a lapel mic. Music lovers will also love this. Lapel mic is very helpful especially to those who do not have a  well-modulated voice. Lapel mic is a must for small or big classroom setup. Very helpful and convenient to use in class program, music fest and other extra curricular activities.

Though, some bad experiences happened. And unending hardship and hurdles come along the way, I will never trade this position for any profession and jobs. This is where I belong. This is what I want- to touch lives and influence people (in a good way). Teaching is the noblest job ever.

Keep going everyone. 

Monday, February 20, 2017

Procrastinator: The Thing You Should Hate About You

Today, I just learned my lesson- that is to never procrastinate ever!

Procrastinator- is a person who delays or puts things off — like work, chores, or other actions — that should be done in a timely manner. A procrastinator is likely to leave all the Christmas shopping until December 24th. Procrastinator comes from the Latin verb procrastinare, which means deferred until tomorrow.
I know some promises are made to be broken, but I'll try my best to do the right thing. Today, some opportunities just slip away just because I procrastinate. Many of us, boast about tomorrow... the next day and the days to come, but we never realize that those days will never come. The things that was lost today was just a small amount of penny. But hey, you cannot easily find that certain amount this days. The opportunity is already in my hand but unluckily, I allowed tardiness overpower my being. I got tired to do the task, knowing that there's still tomorrow to do it, lately I realized it's already gone.

One thing I don't want to pass on is this kind of trait or attitude. It really sucks. Good thing what got away is small amount, but what if the greater and much bigger opportunities will be gone just because you always procrastinate?

Procrastination is a killer disease. It kills you time, opportunity and dreams to do big. It gives you nothing but regrets. In my life I don't want to say these lines... "what if.." and "if only...". That is the most miserable words to say. And I don't want to be a miserable person who regret her life and the person I could become.

Keep going everyone. Enjoy life and please... Do not procrastinate.

Friday, February 10, 2017

What and Why I Prefer "Harana"?

This February, celebrate love month filled with music and love songs. Enjoy every minute with your loved ones. It's very nice and romantic when you play music to your love ones. I find it very sincere and touching. In the Philippines, playing music to the one you love (usually used in courtship) is called "harana". Serenading the one you love. Making her feel extra special. The man looks attractive and sexy when they know how to sing songs and play the guitar. I believe in using songs to say things.
Music and love makes this world go around. 

Don't settle for flowers and chocolates. I prefer "harana" than any other gifts. Start it now by learning the guitar. Go grab your sheet music guitar. This love month, February, now is the perfect time to pursue someone and make them feel special and wanted.

Keep going everyone. Happy Love month. God bless :)

Thursday, February 09, 2017

February: The Love Month?

It's the beautiful month of the year again. Hello February! Many doesn't care about this month, while other also look forward for this month to come.
February is a love month celebrated all over the world. It originally started as Valentines day. Valentine's day was named after saint Valentine's commemoration at 14th of February. Later, it was associated with tradition of country love.

Where flowers, chocolates, teddy bears and etc. are very expensive during this month, it keeps me wonder. Why wait for February where flowers and other gifts are in it's peek price. We have all the time.. and other months to surprise and give special gifts for your love ones and special ones. I'm being practical. Why not give them flowers everyday, or every January or any other month? Stop practicing rituals- don't be so traditional. I don't find it very sincere, when you give flowers to someone because 'hello, it's February'? I don't see wrongs in giving gifts on February, I just want to share and express to you that everyday can be a love day, every month is a love month. Stop, don't wait for February to remind you to buy flowers for your wife, children girlfriend and etc. They deserve to have it everyday. They need to be appreciated everyday.

Anyway, I'm not playing protagonist. Be wise enough, don't buy flowers on February. Hahaha kidding. Happy love month, anyway.

Tuesday, January 17, 2017

Evolution of Music Lovers: From 90s to Millennials

I was one of the kids born in 90s. I witnessed how our generation changes as well as the taste in music. I was inspired to write this blog when I heard my sister's music playlist. I don't know why but there's really a change when you hear today's hit. I am not biased, but I think the 90s songs are more meaningful, classical and... I don't know, it's inexplicable. Nothing quite brings you back to the good old days like '90s music, and even those of us who prefer far hipper music today have to admit that lisening to 90's music gives us all sorts of nostalgic feels.

Born in 1989, I've witnessed how music evolves as well as music icons.  Westlife turns into Coldplay and The Script, cassette tape and CDs replaced by ipod, song hits books faced out due to Google search lyrics and chords. Everything is now accessible through internet, even music are now downloadable in ITunes and available in spotify. 

If you are a "true blood" music lover, you will clearly see the changes. Even in musical instruments. You will witness how it evolves. I've visited some sites today like guitar center rockville, you will see different kinds of modern guitars and other musical instruments. You can find great selection of guitars, keyboards, basses, drums and etc. Those instruments are far more different than the instruments in the 90s. The instruments now are so modern and hightech.

Music also undergo evolution of different different genres. From pop, hiphop, alternative rock to Dark Bass Music, Triphop, Air Pop Glitch Soulazz, Country Dance Music, Space Trap and etc. I'm not an expert in music and genre, but as a normal music lover I've clearly hear and see the difference of the style, instruments and genres of music. But despite all the changes... music always touches ones soul.

Keep going everyone. God bless.

Sunday, January 08, 2017

Facing New Beginnings With a Grateful Heart

Another year has ended and we are about to face a new year- a new beginning. I can't imagine how my life looks like 10 years... or 5 years ago. Everything happens in God's perfect plan. I thank God everyday of my life because He made all things work together for good. I've been grateful for all the blessings He showered me. I am also thankful for my family for the treasured moments and some sad and painful moments. The 2016 is the year for me for reconciliation, for healing of wounds and forgiveness. I won't elaborate all the pains I've been through in this blog, but all I can say that God has been so gracious to us that despite all the pain, He shows mercy. The hardships I had the past year will not compare to the love and grace I received from God. It is easy to be thankful for the good things. A life of rich fulfillment comes to those who are also thankful for the setbacks. 

Things to do and look forward this 2017:
1. Give more time for myself. Explore, wander and do the things I love. I would love to go back to painting- again. I want to go to different places within the Philippines with my family. I want to explore new things alone. "More Me time" for me. This all I want.

2. Change my perspective. Give priorities and finish work on time. I hate to procrastinate. Not this time! Not this 2017.

3. Make a better version of me. Feel and be beautiful. There's always a better version of yourself. Go and find it. Be beautiful- inside and out. 

Get a life. I'm so excited for the new life that awaits. God is gracious. enjoy life's adventure. Keep going everyone. God bless. Happy New Year. 


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