Saturday, November 21, 2015

Random Thought: Building Up The Destroyed Walls

Everything is falling apart, all of a sudden, it collapsed in front of me and I can't do something about it.I felt the pain and agony inside me.I couldn't express and tell how does it happen? I couldn't explain the feeling.The sad fact. Even this blog couldn't express how I felt right now.

It's blue.

I am alone.


In this place, I became a stranger.

Nobody understands. I couldn't explain myself and nobody cares to ask.

Help is nowhere to be found!

Then I began to build up my walls again (again!).
In this wall... I can keep myself from people who wants to hurt me. In this wall... I am aloft and nobody will see it. So, these walls stand tall.
I want to build it to protect myself from hurting.
Anytime they might destroy me, but all I want is to hide in this huge wall.

God wants it to be remove... but I won't because,.. I am still hurting. In some point, He's asking me to remove it in order for me to  be healed.
But this odd rebellious feeling craving for revenge is fighting back.

I can't explain how sad I am right now. And no one cares. It's killing me.

She's coming back. But I don't want to bring back my old self because she's very prideful, arrogant, cruel and suicidal. There are uninvited thoughts of wishing to die--
But how can I face God if I'm like this.

But where will I go from here? This world, I feel like I don't belong. But I could hardly grasps the Heaven because of sins and guilt that drifts me away from God.

My Lord, I don't know who I am anymore. The enemies are dictating of who I am and what will I become... and I started to believe it. It's getting me weaker and weaker everyday.

But I still believe that God is in the process of rescuing me. So I have to hold on and endure the pain because... God will rescue me in this pit of death. I pray that these walls will not go stronger and taller until to the point where it bury me to death.

I'll wait.. I'll wait...

I pray and I'll Hold on...
Isaiah 40:31
But they that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount their wing like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

A Kilometer Journey to Success: The Challenges in the Implementation of Senior High School in Hinterland

Hi Guys, I would like to share to you this post. Actually I'm really hesitant to post this article in my blog because, I might get criticized of my grammar and information stated in this article. But I'm proud because it is my first time to have my article published in a local "publishing house". Hahaha It's located in Iligan City and I'm glad that my article is featured in the Philippine Post Digest (Magazine- October Issue). The together with the other DepEd teachers in Iligan City, we've come up a great and informative Magazine about education. Here's my article.

A Kilometer Journey to Success:  The Challenges in the Implementation of Senior High School in Hinterland

How will you define “success”? Success is the accomplishment of an aim or purpose. Many people aim for financial success, to have a happy family and have the right career. While for students, they define success by having their hard-earned-diploma and graduate in their chosen course. But, are all students given an equal chance to choose their right track and career? Now that there's an implementation of the K to12 program, is it possible to attain?

What is Kto12? How it affect students nowadays? The Kto12 Basic Education program is a flagship program of DepEd which introduces the additional two (2) years of Senior High School (SHS)-Grades 11 and 12. Through Kto12, learners will be equipped to be holistically developed Filipinos with 21st century skills. The additional two years of Senior High School (SHS) aims to provide enough time for mastery of skills, develop lifelong learners, and prepare graduates for tertiary education, middle-level skills development, employment, and entrepreneurship. However, if the student cannot finish the twelve (12) years of basic education (in case they will not continue the Senior High), they will be called “Grade 10 Completers”. They cannot be called “High School Graduate” and they are not entitled to have a diploma. Kto12 program is already a law and is already implemented. Grade 10 students are in their final year in Junior High School as they are set to enter Senior High School in 2016.

Teachers in the hinterland, as they conducted career guidance activities, there are some issues and concerns that arise about the Kto12 implementation. The purpose of the activity is to assist students in choosing their desired course or track. I would like to emphasize the word “choose”. This means they are given the chance to choose the path or desired career that matches their abilities. However, this activity seems to be useless, if the following issues and concern will not be address and resolve. The common issues are:

1. Long distance of home to school- this is one of the big factor that affects students’ decision making. Examples of this are the students in Lanipao High School- Annex in Iligan City. Students walk a kilometer daily. It took them hours of walking, climbing a cliff and crossing rivers just to reach the school. Barangay Lanipao has only one high school and it only offers one track (Technical Vocational Course- Dressmaking and Tailoring). If Senior High will be implemented, it will took them another (additional) kilometer to walk if they wish to enroll in other school who offers other track (i.e. Academic, Sports and Arts). Choosing would be harder for them.

2. Financial Stability of Parents- Yes, the government (DepEd) will shoulder the tuition fee of the students in Senior High School. They’re giving vouchers for students who wish to enroll in private school. But it’s not enough. In the hinterland, majority of parents are farmers and their incomes are not stable. Mostly the average monthly income is around 2,000- 3,000 Php. Not good enough to pay additional expenses like miscellaneous fee, board and lodging (in case they choose their desired track).

3. “Passive Mentality”- It is a challenge for teachers to break that “passive mentality”. Mostly, students are not receptive. They don’t value education that much. About 90% of student population in Lanipao High School Annex did not proceed to college. Most likely, they end up getting married at the early age. Their reason? Financial problem. The implementation of Senior High will be a great challenge to train students to be receptive and encourage them to persevere.

4. More Workforce Needed (School, Students, Teacher and Stakeholders) –
 Teacher factor, schools in the hinterland have only few teachers. Teachers who are handling seven (7) load or subjects that can cause infectivity and burn outs. Teachers have to shoulder the shortcomings of the government- teaching materials and finding available resources. There’s a need of more teachers in hinterlands, especially in the implementation of Senior High. Teachers need more support from the government.

Success is the accomplishment of an aim or purpose. Now, is it possible to reach that success we aimed for? Our main purpose in Kto12 program is to empower students, to train them, equip them with different skills. The main purpose of Senior High School program is to produce quality graduates that are prepared for tertiary, entrepreneurship, employment, to be productive… a graduate that could compete globally. We should not ignore the serious challenges Kto12 program. At the same time, we should take hold on its very real potential to improve the lives of everyone. Despite all the issues and concerns it is still the duty for teacher, students, stakeholders and the government to work hand-in-hand to make this mission possible. Don’t complain. Address the issues so that it can be resolve. There are many problems to be fixed in Kto12 education program and we should pursue these solutions with zeal. To do so means dealing with the many challenges of Kto12 rather than simply putting them on hold.

------end----- A good teacher can inspire hope, ignite the imagination, and instill a love of learning. ~Brad Henry

I hope you learned something from this post. Keep going everyone.

Friday, October 30, 2015

I'm Stuck to this AlDub Fever and I Hate It?

Oh, I know what you're thinking. Please don't... don't bash me because of the title of this post. Don't judge... just continue reading, please?

While everyone go crazy about this "AlDub", I was like, what?? What is that crazy thing all about?Well, it's not my first time to post about the phenomenal loveteam  "ALDub" here in my blog, it is my second time and no one can stop me now.  This kooky loveteam ALDub (ALden Richards and Maine Mendoza's pair up) came to the country by storm- and they're unstoppable. They are the hottest love team in the Philippines right now. How could a "spilt-screen" loveteam can come up with a great Chemistry?
I am a fan of this loveteam since Day 1. I cannot elaborate how I was hooked up in this love team. Just check out my earlier post here.

 how it started... the accidental meet up.

they develop the loveteam through split screen ... (what excites the viewer is they haven't meet personally)
after how many months of airing the spit-screen loveteam and many attempted dates... finally thay're united @ Philippine Arena last October 24, 2015
Here are some of my favorite scenes...

The hashtag #AlDubEBTamangPanahon (translation: AlDubEB In the Right Time in Tagalog) garnered 41 million tweets during the period around the Oct. 24 event, which was attended by some 55,000 fans and broadcast throughout the celebrity-crazed country. -quoted from

Going back to my post, What makes me hate about AlDub? (Actually it's my  actions towards AlDub is what I really hate)
1. It eats my time. Well, It's pretty obvious, they're irresistible. As you watched their videos for the first time- from day 1 until now- you can't stop pushing the replay button. (RIP replay button) :'( What makes me hate it? As grow fonder I was stuck and couldn't work other tasks. But honestly, I enjoyed all their videos. And that's what I love about them, they make me "kilig" and inlove. Noon time show Eat Bulaga! (*bulaga means surprise) really gives justice to their name.

2. I became impatient. I couldn't stop myself thinking about my "prince charming" to come asap. Kalyeserye's AlDub love team started accidentally. It is a typical lovestory (on-screen), but this teamup is like the modern Cinderella story. Maine or Yaya Dub (plays as a nanny) in kalyeserye show. Maine is as a new comer in the showbusiness and accidentally found his handsome and gentleman prince charming Alden Richards <3 Single ladies AlDub fans didn't stop dreaming to meet their prince.

3. It makes me feel nostalgic. I am already 26, but this loveteam reminisce my first love. It's weird, but it really makes me feel sad and happy at thesame time (that butterflies in my stomach)...  that cute and unexplainable feeling when I gaze into his eyes. And the heart beats so fast. Magical! But those are "the days" of the past and it will never be the reality of "now" :( It's quite frustrating, beacuase I really hope that they will end up together... that they will prove that there is Forever .

4. I'm stuck into my fantasies. Yes, we do hope that the two will develop into lovers. We hope and pray that they will find love  with each other. It stuck in my mind all day, dreaming all these fantasies... hoping that it would be a reality. And it makes me feel sad... what if , it will remain on-screen. All of us hope for an off-screen love. We are into this fantacy that we forget our realities.

5. And the last one, it makes all the girls envy Maine Mendoza. hahah lol. Just kidding. Everyone love Maine. Her charm really keep her on the top. Maine Mendoza hailed as the "dub smash queen", the fastest rising star in the Philippines and placed third as the fastest growing Twitter account worldwide. She really evolve from an ordinary and typical girl into a real princess. The fame, success and the love that she receieves, who wouldn't want to be in her shoes?

Too much much fondness can overdose you... AlDub is good, the show really shows moral values (like the traditional Filipino way of courting, respect of elders and etc) and it really gives you positive vibes everyday. But too much of it could really harm you. It could stir up you emotions and feelings. It would consume all your time, it will depart you from reality and will cause you envy. So be aware. Alden and Maine are very lovable, humble and down to earth so it's not hard to love them. But don't be too much consumed of this fondness that you will forget your own life. They AlDub truly inspires us but don't forget, God made a special story for you. It will never be shown  if there's no actor in it- you! (*pabebe wave)

Keep going everyone. God bless.

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Hashtag Forevergrateful- Celebrating my 26th

Hi everyone. I've been so busy this past few weeks that's why I hardly post in my blog. But I thank you guys for always keeping in touch with me. I will always and forever grateful to you.

I'll gonna make this message simple and short,
It's a great day to celebrate my natal day. Today is my 26th birthday and I wouldn't let this day pass without thanking all the people who loves me. From the bottom of my heart I really thank you for always visiting my blog (it really means a lot to me), I thank my family for their unwavering support and to my co-teachers who always make my work easier (having a great working place is priceless). I also thank my "best friends" who came and celebrate with me. And, to my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ who continually pursue and cares for me through out my 26 years in this world.
I can't believe how time flies so fast. I feel like it was yesterday when I first opened my eyes and see my mother's first smile, when I started to learn to speak the word "mama" and "papa" and when I did my first walk (and fall)... and walk (and fall). Now, that I'm already 26, still, I'm trying to figure out the life that is installed for me. Searching... knowing... but, at the end of this, God will reveal the purpose of my life :)
I am truly blessed and amazed on how the God of the universe stitched all these simple details of my life. Truly He cares for me. Indeed :)
I thank God for everything!!!

 #forevergrateful #blessed #simplejoy; snapshot from my birthday celebration

Well this is the end of my simple thank you letter.  Keep going everyone. Have a blessful weekend. God bless.

Wednesday, October 07, 2015

I'm a Pluviophile in Some Way

Hi everyone. it's a cold and rainy evening.. and I'm loving it. It's really a good feeling in finding time for myself. It's a joy and it makes me feel at peace with myself. I just love the feeling listening to the rhythm of the rain. I'm a pluviophile in some way (word of the day actually!). There's a part of me who find comfort whenever it rains and I feel calm and relaxed. I think rainy season is just perfect time for me to think. It's a perfect time for me to dream big and think my wildest thoughts (dreaming of impossible dreams). Though, it makes me a little bit weirder when it rains. I wanna play under the rain and go crazy (just to reminisce my childhood), cry under the rain (because nobody will notice it), and scream and shout to the rain because its the the best feeling ever. That's how rain brings out the "bipolar" in Just kidding. Thanks to the rain though.

Here's the scenario of today:
It rains so hard lately.  I spent the whole day at school freezing cold. I sat near the window while my students were doing their school work, I spent the whole afternoon watching the rain. It sounds like a music to my ear. It's crystal clear water has no evidence of the polluted world. I came out of the classroom and reach out to him. I felt the droplets falling into my hands and I am relieved in my nostalgic me. It's such a great feeling knowing that the rain could be your friend. The pluviophile in me come naturally. I am thankful for the rain. Indeed... "pluviophile" I am.
*The pluviophile in google dictionary is a lover of rain, someone who finds joy and peace of mind during rainy days.

Keep goin' everyone. Happy rainy day :) ",,


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